aiks...... whhy??

whhy shuud i fall in love wv sumone tht i not supposed to? can anyone tell mi whyy? life is full of pain, sorrow... i always find a reason fer myself to forgv him but i cant reli found it put. aiks. from da vv beginning he didnt love mi at all as i blv tht he oni will love teo woon hwan. the one n only gurl tht he will love. whhy? they break so many times n at last they can couple bck? whhy??? i reli wan to noe da truth even it is hurt anot caz i reli dun wan lik a sor poh n gv ppl kip on lie-ing. i hate ppl lie to mi. even yi zaii lie mi once b4 n i wan to break wip him. but den whhy he lied to mi so many times n i kip acting dunnoe n lik nth happen b4? am i reli fall in love to him? he sae wen he put mi as featured fren, pm n shoutout is on mi n i hv no reponse. actualli i dunnoe hu is tht pm refers to hu.but now i noe lerhh.. sumtime i feel lik noe the truth is beta den dunnoe anyting n sumtime tink if i dunnoe kip on dunnoe, i mite not hurt actualli. aiks. im sure their love is vv deep. haix. everytime afta exam i got time i sure tink rthe side n start to cry. yts i send him a msg n co him to choose her. am i ryte to do tht? i reli wanted to sms him. i miss him so much, every second he is on my mind. but i noe i hv to gv up on him so i control myself not to tink of him n sms le but this feeling is vv suffer. pain in my heart. aiks.i hope wat i did is ryte. haix. there is many thing make mi suspicious and shudd i trust on him?aiks. from vv beginning til the end he oni love her. i reli dun und wat do boii wan act. y all oso so playboii. i hate it. i dun wan hav bf lerh. i dun wan le. haix. i hav suffer enuf. single mite gud fer my life. haix