miracle?

slept at 2AM last night. not really late. Jason Lee called me last night.
first of all. thanks buddy. he's a very gentleman and good guy.

and a good friend (:

he purposely called me to explain something. 

related to me and steph. and yeah. we talked almost half an hour.

I cried a while when I talked to him. but he didn't realize it.

HAHA! nevermind. not a matter. he called me to take the first step.

I mean he wants me to find or text steph first. 

cause I might lost a very very good friend if I don't do so.

as you know. I said that she forgot me right? 

I thought for quite some time about it. 

what I think might be childish. cause I'm the one who always find her first.

if she really do hearts me, why don't she find me first? I know its a immature thinking.

I guess. that's the same on steph's mind. I woke. and I saw her miss call.

and she texted me. it was like a miracle. or such a coincidence huh?

I was totally shocked. and yeah. happy right. but there's some different in the message.

she address me as 'cheyan' and not 'mei'. that's quite disappointing.

maybe I too sensitive? or anything else? think too much?

but the main purpose is call me go out. I should be happy. 

but. I'm not. cause she's alone. and she thought of me.

that's why she find me? our relation might not as close as last time..

michelle. recently she's so moody. no idea why. wanna cheer her up. but. I don't know what's going on. sighs. I'm so useless huh? such a failure. anyway, darling. if you see this. remember. I'll always be there for you. love ya ;D

joanne. she's mad at me. cause I'm too close with tsu ping? if that made you mad. here I apologize. sorry dear. you told tsu ping that I did not comfort you when you're depress. and you did comfort me when I'm depress. actually I did. you too sensitive. maybe my wrong. sorry.

I'm going to school tomorrow. enrollment preparation. I into sketch. gosh? I'm so dead. whatever la. lalalala~