sorry

I just hate today. What a fucking worst day I ever had.

I almost lost a good friend. But everything is fine. Settled. 

Went to aunt's house for homemade 'Laksa' made by grandma.

Talked bout something I dislike. I did my very best to hold my tears.

And I did. To hid away my emotions, hold my tears. 

I know well myself more than anyone of you. 

You always thought I didn't care it. But you didn't know.

You didn't know how much I suffocates and cried. 

You'll never know. You just telling everyone bout my ignorance.

And such. Don't you know how bad does I felt. 

I feel like dying seriously. I've been struggling really hard.

It's totally hard for a 15 years old girl. 

Backed home. Something happened. 

I felt I'm really useless. I couldn't do anything to help you.

I just watch you being really depress, stress out, upset and frustrated.

I just sat in my room and cried. Asking myself what I've ever done.

I'm just being a burden. I'm sorry mom. 

I'm really sorry.