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friday, 28 march 2008 11.55pm
my most worst moment in my life.. this is da day tht chie yean gor told me y he had to treat me like this. i was so hurt at tht moment so i cant hold my tears anymore n tears rolling down. i was so sad and depress. haix. cant believe tht he had to treat me like this because of his good gf. when they break, i keep on by chie yean gor side n cheer him up. i waste a lot of effort on him cause he meant everything to me. all he told me is fake. there is no such thing as ' forever ' in this world. haih. maybe im too naive tht i believe in him n trust him so much. i thought tht he will never leave me n be with me forever. IS NOT! he say i lied to him tht da poem tht i write to him but its not. i wrote it by my heart. he say tht wil take care of me forever. love me more than anything. got me jau no other girl but its all FAKE!! i really hurt! it is more hurt then i break up or what ever. no one made me like this b4. i can do nothing n juz can sit there suffer n cry. haih! im so suffer in it. too hurt. i really want to end up relationship with him but i cant. if i send tht message to him, i'll lost kai gor which is love the most so if i dont send i still got a kai gor here. haih!!!!!! very farn arh.. who can help me out? who can give back kai gor to me? i really want him back?