am i fated to be threaten by this way?

today im so darn moody.it suppose to be happy today but why i see her 'sent messages' in her phone. i was totally down but its just because she is my bestest friend and because she hurt me once once n once. so i was like no feeling, don't angry her but really hurt cause why must she treat me by this way huh? i treat her with my heart fully and this is what i get for repay huh? although i hate the way she treat me but in my heart she always is my best friend and never gone. i was very down and no mood. like dying when finishing my geography homework. steph and gina was chatting beside me. i just ignore them and continue my work. then steph asked me why and what happened. i just say nothing. i don't tell her cause i don't want it to spoil out relation. so i told her that if i tell her,it will ruin our relationship. she say won't and forced me to tell. but i really don't want. so she start to tickle me to forced me. and gina have a wild guess. she asked me is it related to ah gong[chun] so i said yes. steph keep on thinking. her expression looks like she know. but she don't want to tell. aiks. she don't want to tell,i also cant do anything. after recess,i saw steph's bag inside got something.its a hard cover book actually. i wanted to see but gina,steph don't let. we was like snatching and i snatch till fell on the floor. my knee pain like hell. gina promise me that she would let me see after that. she really did gave me the book. inside got steph and gina's secret. gina's one was funny like hell. it wrote about she how much love guo juen and very suffer on admiring him. LOL! i laugh to death. i was a failure to be someone's best friend and girlfriend. am i? i don't know gina admire juen so long and so CRAZY about him till always cry. waseh! then me and steph keep on laugh and started to be CARZY and INSANE. haha. we was like started to modified the song lyrics for gina. haha! when i read again the book, i saw steph's. she wrote that tkl with someone and never regreted cause she really love him and gave everything to him. i think that steph really love that guy[mun chun]. aihs! never mind bah. *cheer ups* and chun admitted that he really does love her and couple with her.i cant stand anymore. i was keep on make myself strong and don't cry but i really cant dee. my tears started to flow when talk on the with him. i cant concentrate my studies in school cause the question was haunting me. my eyes were staring at teacher but my mind is full of question and him.