i don't know why no feeling to this incident, i was like no feeling. at the beginning, i was very sad and cried but after its settle. i was like nothing happen. when thinking back, its like nothing happen and cant cried anymore cause i know how much i sad and cried, everything won't back to normal. if i sad and everything will back to be normal and nothing happen, i rather to sad forever. but because of this, i notice that many people were so care me. especially to my beloved god brother. they were supporting me and cheering me up on that time.
i really don't understand why must stephanie do this to me? do i owe her in the past or whatever? she know that we would fought over a guy again. cause its happen before. that time its pook la. kinda ridiculous. *laughs
although she hurt me lots but i really don't know why i still so friending and close with her. i was like cant live without her? LOL
though she was important to me but i cant really accepted what she have done.
one or twice is it not enough? *sigh
i need to face her every single day in my school day. should i angry her? or just forgive AND forget? i really don't know what to do. aihs.
i don't know why i keep on listening to the song that sent by wai sum. maybe its meaningful. *smiles
and he was like wanted to chase me back. he still love me. gosh! what am i gonna do? i really don't want to hurt him.*sigh
he rather to be back with me and i treat him like last time. than seeing me love someone doesn't loves me.
the way i treat mun chun, to him was unfair. although me and wai sum been half year but i never care bout his feeling. i always make him cry and hurt. i really don't wanna to hurt him anymore. and always ignore him. he was here when im sad. but did i done the same to him? I DID NOT! to me, he is a good bf. only im the one who its not good. i didn't appreciate him. but its already a fact and history that we break. after we break, he always moody and cry. i don't want to see him flow anymore tears because of me cause its totally not WORTH! *guilty.
why must i love chun? WHY?! why me and steph need to fought over him? i don't want everything goes this way. this is not how i want it to be. is it i let go chun, and everything will be alright? although i LOVES him darn freaking much,but if i let go and everything will be alright.i rather to lost him. i don't want everyone to suffer. i know steph would be angry me. cause i made her lost chun. chun break with her. and she did not reply my message. something its not right. i know she loves him very much, but what can i do? give chun to her? i really cant!!!! CANT!! i cant do anything to released this pain. although me and chun now nothing and back to normal but in heart,there will be always a scar. and it won't gone! *cries
im so tired of being like that. *sigh who can help me?
im so glad to have a best friend [joanne]. she was my best friend. she lost her best friend [li ching] and now she only left me and stephanie. why must i abandon her? she care for my feeling so much. but did i? i always also steph steph steph steph and steph. i never care about joanne. she really appreciates me damn much. *touched when see her blog
next year i would be lefting her all alone in RPS, me go to mc and stephanie back to johore. i know she would very very LONELY but what can i do? her mum doesn't allows her to transfer. *sad. i will never forget you dear [joanne]. you will be always in my heart no matter how far we were. HEARTS her..
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