without him the 5th day, 5th of june 2008.thursday

aiks.adi 5 dae i break wv him.now im writing blog here n he is on9-ing in msn wv status away.aiks. i reli wanted to find him but i noe im not qualified. i reli dunnoe wat shudd i do. aikss. i reli wanna die la weh. i reli suffer n everytime i miss him, i will rmb bck wat he told mi.he dunnoe hu am i wen i co him,i dun nid tuh noe wat he write to steph,the msg i send to him is completely killing his heart but i dunnoe is real anot. i reli hurt wen i rmb bck n i trying to rmb bck wat i ve done to him. i use my hse fon to co him wen my fon no credit.i nvr use my hse fon to co any boii b4. but.. its too late to regret n apologize.aiks. if i cn bck to da time i will choose not to leave him n let him go. i will apperciate him but i noe all oso its too late. no use no matter wat i do.aiks......reli regret. i didnt wish him hapi bday, n this ting make mi felt extremely guilty.aiks. i sae his pm on msn. he hate all of us caz v didnt reli celebrate his bday. wat shudd i do? missing himm........